aachi-chan

I got a desk and dual monitor arms today! I'm one step closer to moving my desk from the 'art room' to a more 'office' space. I'm excited to be able to have a place that is actually INSIDE the house to be able to teach English to the kids I teach instead of having to walk to the shed every night where we set up an office space out there. I didn't like doing that last winter or in the rain. This week marks a year that I've been teaching those classes as my job now. 

So once I get all moved, I'll have my 'art room' space still for sculpting but I'll just have my laptop out here (in the art room) when I need it. And in my 'office' I'll have my desktop with my dual monitors and there I will do my classes, drawing, game playing, tv watching etc. (I've been doing my classes with my laptop up to now). 

So quite a bit of living space reorganizing going on around here lately-which has come about from a lot of home improvement stuff these last couple of months. I'm sick of painting walls at this point >.< The office space we had set up out in the shed will be used for storage of things more sensitive to dirt  and such like electronics and books.

Update: I was able to get a hold of my orthodontist from the email I sent her with the pictures yesterday (thankfully she checks messages even when they're closed!) and she said that part that fell off should actually be just be filling material she put on quite a ways back to make that tooth bigger. I don't know if she was actually in the office today and able to check records, but if she wasn't, that would be crazy that she could remember that of one of her many patients when even I had forgotten all about that. Even now that I remember that, I didn't realize just how huge of a chunk that was or that it went up into my gum too. Well at least that would make sense as to why it doesn't hurt... I'm still pissed off that I couldn't even enjoy my braces being off for even a day before something got messed up -_-

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After 53 months with braces, yesterday morning I finally got them off.... then in the afternoon one of my teeth broke. I mean what the hell?! Am I cursed? I can't even enjoy my long fought for and debt increasing good teeth for a full day!? 
    

And neither my orthodontist or dentist are open on Fridays. So I can't do anything about it until Monday. On the bright side, it doesn't hurt. I seem to have gotten lucky in that it split off far enough from the nerve parts that even with the inside exposed it doesn't hurt even when I eat or drink.

Well aside from the bullshit of my broken tooth, I'm glad I finally got my braces off. Check out how frikkin different they look and how my face looks different from before I got braces to after. It's kinda crazy.  I didn't notice how much of a change it was until I saw the before and after together. Now if only I could actually eat some damn caramel and taffy like I've been wanting to for years. Stupid frikkin broken tooth! 
 

So I'm excited! Saturday I'm getting Lasik to fix my vision finally! When I got my glasses a month or two ago I asked for info on Lasik and they referred me to a place. I went out of town for a free consultation in Kansas City (and I didn't know I had the flu so right after she started checking my vision I threw up in their office and had to stay in a hotel overnight). I went up the following week to finish a consultation and they said I'm good for Lasik and I got a 20% teacher discount for teaching Chinese kids English online and also $700 off in two other discounts I got. So it's gonna be $3050 which we will put on our Care Credit card. Which we shouldn't really get an additional monthly bill but talking with my husband we decided that it's better to fix my vision now. If I wait too long I'll turn around and be right back into glasses even if they're reading glasses. I want at least a few years of my life not needing glasses. So I'm excited! A while back I found my pair of Oakley sunglasses I used to wear when I wore contacts that my boyfriend at the time got for me (from like 10 years ago). My brother had stolen them from my room at my dad's house and damaged the lenses badly. I just got new lenses from Amazon today and I'm ready to wear them again! I'm pretty excited to finally be able to see! No more not knowing how dirty the shower is while I'm actually taking a shower! LOL 

My stomach problems seems to be getting under control for the most part with the new medicine. It's very hard to take since I have to take it so far from food or other medicines but it's 'as needed' and it does seem to be helping. 

Last week I went to the doctor for migraines that have been popping up since Thanksgiving. She had me do an MRI just as a routine check but it's been a week and I haven't heard anything yet which gives me anxiety. I'm sure they're probably just backed up with work but every day I wait to hear makes me more nervous O_o

I got a new computer tablet for drawing/3d modeling, I've been using my old tablet for my ESL classroom on my laptop since I started. That way I can write on the slides for class. I haven't used my new one yet. I want to but I'm having a hell of a hard time getting myself motivated and/or inspired. I haven't really done anything creative for ages. I don't know what to do to fix myself. My contractor bailing on me last year was really a punch in the gut. While I worked for them they were very picky about every tiny detail so that made me not very motivated for other creative work, then they bailed and more or less went out of business and that seems to have just kicked me while I was down. It's not really their fault, I'm sure they are depressed about their business going down. But I don't know how to get myself going again. I thought maybe I could try drawing, which I haven't done in years, but I just end up staring at the blank screen in PaintTool Sai >_< Sculpting in clay and Zbrush feels overwhelming for some reason. I'm thinking about maybe easing myself into stuff by getting an anime garage kit to paint just for my own fun or something. I'm not sure. I'm also hoping having good eyesight finally will make me feel better and maybe give me some motivation.

well my laptop I use to teach my  classes crashed this morning and made me late for a class. We opened it up today to check if the hard drive is something we can replace and found that the lithium battery is swelling.. so I need a new computer for that. This is in addition to the car smoking yesterday and it is in the shop today.  Tomorrow I have an important test out of town to do an upper GI on my stomach hernia before they schedule my surgery so I had to rent a car because I absolutely have to go to that appointment because it took a month to get in to begin with and I canceled my classes tomorrow morning because I can't have anything to drink after midnight (which makes talking for hours to teach torture) so I gotta get that doctor's note for the cancellations I did. I got a loan against my life insurance to help pay for all this. And I was finally making headway on paying back the one I already had out too. Well, back to square one >_< The check for that won't be here until the end of the week though so it doesn't help me in the meantime. Luckily we have an old laptop that's still working well enough as a stop gap and my dad works for the shop I'm getting my car fixed at so unlike other customers, I can pay the bill later instead of before they even start to work on it. He just went back to work for the first time today since his neck surgery last Monday.... This whole last week has been cursed.   I know this all sounds crazy but I can't even make this kind of shit up.  

Anyway, don't mind me, I just had to rant somewhere x_x

oh yeah.. and I had to get new glasses last week before new about the car and computer. If I'd known about those I could have put the glasses off.... -___-

[Later that night]--- well.... the backup laptop also frikking died -_- so I had to get a new laptop from walmart with borrowed money so I can teach classes. I can't catch a break

I actually wrote this yesterday but it didn't post for some reason...

Today I got a numbing shot in my FACE. Like seriously, through my cheek into my upper jaw. That was in addition to the first one they stuck right in my healing wounds from the minor dental surgery from last week (that one was the most painful dental shot I've ever gotten hands down) and the last one which was in my jaw hinge area. It's because I've been having more pain from that surgery the last couple of days than I did right after it and the pain is in the jaw hinge area on that side, not even really in the surgery site! Apparently, my nerve is irritated or something. So I got shot up with numb stuff so I could go over to my orthodontist and get power chains put on the wire loops they embedded in my upper jaw during that surgery last week. Even with half my face numb, I was too sensitive for them to put a chain on the wire loop that was further back. IF it hurt me that much after three numbing shots, I shudder to think how horrible it would have been with no numbing stuff at all! I probably would have punched somebody from the pain! 

On top of that, my gastroenterologist finally got back to me. Long story short, it looks like I need a surgery to fix my hiatal hernia (basically a part of my stomach slipped up and because of that I get lots of acid in my esophagus that's causing me a lot of other problems. We've known about it since January but it seems it's causing me more problems lately) so yeah.. not the best day... and my numbing shots are starting to wear off and I am becoming PAINfully aware of the chain pulling on my teeth from wires they implanted into my jaw bone. Good thing he gave me muscle relaxers. Should help with at least the muscle pain/jaw hinge pain I'm having so I won't have to deal with that on top of the bone pain. If you'll excuse me.. I'm just gonna go sleep through to the New Year...